Once Again

Sitting in dilemma

on the side of the bed

eyes half closed

half apart.

Thinking deeply

still in subconscious mind

whether what I saw was real

or my eyes faking around.

My mind wanders again and again

playing the scenes

for numerous time.

Did I see him?

Of course he was there!

playing with me,

not leaving my hand

clicking selfies

and kicking each other

The fun moments 

came accompanied with him.

After a long one year

that blush returned

the smile appeared 

and the soul cherished.

The happiness

which was borrowed

by the mind, for the soul

lasted for few minutes

and everything only a smoke.

I'll not pray from God

to give you back

not because I don't want

but I know she wants you more than me

she would be broken

she would be hurt

I'm strong

and everyone can't be me.

So, I've left him behind

moving ahead

on the path 

which would not coincide

with his.