Sunday, 15 September 2024

I'll never know

 

I skip a heartbeat

each time I realize we are destined to be apart.

A quiet ache fills me

as reality whispers

that we can never become “us.”

 

I’ll never know

the warmth of your arms around me,

the sweet trembling in my soul

when you hold me close,

or the magic of a kiss that could have been ours.

 

I’ll never walk with you under the stars,

feeling the cool night air

and the comfort of your presence.

Perhaps sitting together,

laughing until time stood still.

Or maybe our hands were never meant to hold on a perfect date...

 

Dancing with you in the rain

will live on only in my dreams.

The moments of teasing,

pulling your hair,

and feeling the joy of playful embraces,

are what I will always long for.

 

I’ll never know

How would it feel to walk by your side along the shore,

to lose myself in your gaze

until I see every hidden secret,

to unravel the tenderness inside you

and love you in all the ways the universe

never allowed.

 

Tuesday, 18 May 2021

To IIM Bangalore

Today

when I behold you so dearly

That I had only dreamed of

I doubt my senses

They must have put me in a chimaera

As for how come you transported into reality

So you must give me a day or two

As I have waited for eight years

Thinking that I am not good enough

Please do give me some time

So I can savour it

Assimilate it down to every fibre of my body.


I won’t say you came into my dreams

As you gave me sleepless nights.

My mind working on every detail, a thousand time

'Cause you were love at first sight

And I was working bloody hard to confess to you!


I know the journey will be freaking arduous

But I also know that I’m gonna love it

'Cause, when did I not!

Tuesday, 16 March 2021

Manali

 If I can pen it down

Then it wasn’t that beautiful!


Yeah, it’s been a year!

And the memories are still fresh.

How can you forget something?

That already took your heart before you even came in their vicinity.


Those snow-capped mountains

Trekking to thousands of feet

Making our snow-man

Drinking from the stream, which carried water straight from glaciers

Bathing with cold water in the evening,

Even when drinking that would cost a sore throat.


Making a whole lot of strangers

Into lifelong friends

The ride of the van packed with twelve,

complete strangers,

And all it took was half an hour

To realize, ‘we were destined to be a group.’

Whether it was Charlie, Delta or two lovely sisters

The trip would have been incomplete even if we missed one.


It felt I met a part of myself.

Mountains, trees, streams, clouds, rain, birds, animals, they all are me,

We all are one

Sharing centuries-old bond.


It was doubtlessly heaven.

Cause my heart never felt that peace before. 


If I can pen it down

Then it wasn’t that beautiful.

Friday, 5 March 2021

Till Last Breath


“I don't have feelings for you anymore,” he said

I was standing still
Couldn't believe what just happened.
That dream shattered
Pain too much to handle.

He was explaining
But what I had heard
Was enough to make me run away.

Tears flooding
My mind, too slow to assimilate
Every word was tearing me apart
Wanted to think that it was a nightmare
But it proved much worse.

Every moment came flashing by
Your promise
Your love
The way you used to say, “You belong with me”
Our first kiss
The day we met
When you wrapped your arms around me,
Yes, everything!

I wanted a forever
But I guess you just stopped for sometime
Before you can catch on another train.
I believed your Till-Last-Breath
But I forgot that you were a human
And they know how to betray.

Wednesday, 2 December 2020

'Cause I love you!

For every time I didn't say
I love you!
for every time I had hidden down my feelings
I wanna say sorry to myself
and to you too!

I love you from the day I first saw you
you made me fall
without doing anything
and now when I talk to you everyday
when I laugh with you so hard
Still... I can't confess.

You will never come to know
cause I would never let you know 
But I wanna say,
I love you!
I loved you for every second when I was with you
or when I was not with you.

I know we talk less
we go out even less
but sill you are the music
that plays in my heart
every morning I wake up.

Tuesday, 10 December 2019

Tuesday


It was Tuesday, I guess
In a grocery store, where my mom took me
Near the billing counter
I saw an old man, with a stick
Dressed all in white with a beautiful kufi on his head

Yeah he was alone
And accidentally dropped his debit card in the shopping basket
With stick in one hand, he was trying to reach for card from another
I saw him doing all these
So I pulled the card and handed him

He looked at me with a smile, so earnest
It took my heart away
He came and sat next to me
“I survived two bullets on my right leg,
in Kargil
retired as a Captain,
I was that young!”
I had no words so, I became a listener
and he recited his story
“I took fourteen years out of my life
To teach my two sons and to make their career
One is Major in army
Another Manager in SBI.”
I couldn’t miss the satisfaction on his face
Nor the smile
Neither his words.

After some time,
He stood up
“take care, beta” he left
And I could only manage to say a thank you.



Saturday, 30 November 2019

Again for myself

I know it's never gonna be easy
One day....
it may be tomorrow
or some two years after this moment
I'll have to leave you
and find a new path

I don't know
how many tears do I need to shed again
how the broken heart would be repaired
how would I collect myself
But some distant day,
I know 
I would.

Again the same routine
same pain penetrating me deep down
Of course I can see
but everything is blank
cloudy
blur
nothings gonna be same ever again
and I have to live with it.

Every time it happens,
every time I'll have to let it go
I know I don't deserve you
or I guess I don't deserve anyone
just blank lonely place.

Once again,
I know I can do it again
again for myself.